Forward

Paralyzing fear
that you allow to move
without knowing how to resolve
the uncertainty, of my will to live
and the constant care 
of not going overboard 
of not falling
over a cliff of shadows 
of incessant pain-
A will to be, even with my hurts,
even without being, 

fully me, 
But at least, without losing 
the remembrance of my life
and the desire
to continue loving.